it's amazing how much it hurts

oh man. this day really picked me up. my dad came to visit Ruth and I. we have been looking forward to this day for a long time. actually since my family left to go back home in august. it was short but sweet. i went to class this morning while dad and ruth hung out, then they came and rescued me. We went to quiznos for lunch where i had too many hot peppers. they killed my stomach! i was then dropped back off at school for a class i didn't have to be at. i hate that. after school was finished for the day, they came and picked me up and dad and i dropped ruth off at home so she could bake her delicious apple crisp. then dad and i went to the mall and hung out. father/son time. we walked around various outlets and then walked into old navy where he bought me a great beige jacket. it is very chique. he also bought me some t-shirts that i liked.
thanks dad :) . we then went back to pick up ruth and headed off to grandmas to vist. from there we went to east side marios and had a great dinner together. dad got kung pao chicken which wasn't hot until he had a bite of my chicken cacciatore. he gave me gifts from my family - lindsay gave me a lovely card, matt gave me a cd from the raconteurs, ryan bought me a future shop gift card, and mom and dad gave me a card and a derek webb dvd. thank you thank you. after supper, we went back to our place for apple crisp which was amazing. we chatted and looked at pictures and talked to mom/lindsay on webcam. and then before you knew it, we were hugging dad goodbye...i didn't cry right away. its painful you know, you wait all this time for a day you think will last forever and then its over. when ruth and i got back inside, we cried. and laughed at our kittens. i hope dad has a safe drive back to toronto tonight. i'm sure he will. we can't wait to see him again and the rest of my amazing family. i really miss my dad a lot tonight.

I love you very much Dad, Mom, Ryan, Matthew, Lindsay.
you're always on our minds.

sean

luke check out this link - get your hudson fix

just thought you'd be interested. i think there are more on the website.
love ya man,

sean

http://www.gracechapel.ns.ca - then go to "listen",
then scroll down until you reach hudson

simple twist of fate

yes life can take unexpected turns. the cards aren't always flush. just enjoy those moments you have. anyway, right now i'm listening to franz ferdinand and thinking about my good friend matt. man i had such a good time two years ago with him and andy. he's a good guy. and ladies, he's single but not looking right now. matt if you haven't got the hint yet, i love ya man. you'll have to come over for a keith's and franz and chappelle. it'd be a rip rootin good time.

also i miss jay a lot. best (male) roomate ever. and just remember i watch you when you sleep.

and luke. oh luke, i'm so glad you're here in ontario for now. we absolutely love having you over every friday. have fun with jay this weekend! hug him for me and give him a little toosh squeeze. that's all i have to gay for now.

sean

artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity

I thought that was funny quote. Saw it on a sign earlier this week.

walking through the desert is a painful process. the sand scorches the soles of your feet and your skin begins to burn. water is nothing but wishful thinking. even the night brings no relief. it grows colder by the minute and the once-warm sand dunes no longer hold their warmth. you feel lost, without hope, knowing that no one knows you are stranded out here. it's a pretty discouraging feeling. but you still keep walking. you don't know why, but you feel compelled to. i mean, you came all this way, you're not going to turn around now. besides it would be pointless, you're most likely past half of your trek. on and on, dragging your deadweight body along. then, when all hope seems to have escaped your body, you spot a small pit with water inside of it. you taste it and it tastes beautiful. you gain moisture back into your body and you rest. as your body regains health, you take all the comfort you can because in time, you will be back on your desert road. this is how i describe my journey through life. a never ending test of devotion and discomfort to the One you walk towards, even if you can't see Him.

sean

more than sparrows

we my friends are more than sparrows. i never really realized that until a couple of days ago. Jesus knows every hair on my head, why? I don't know but he does. I guess that comes with being omniscient. you end up knowing a bunch of pointless things. if i had to guess, i'd say 43 323 hairs. but you also know the heart of every man. kinda cool. and i'm going to stop now.

i've got this song stuck in my head, a really funky groovin number - Ophelia by The Band, and i like the lyrics. but it really is better to listen to it. if you have limewire, download it and enjoy.

now i drift into the shadowlands

sean